I had a tough week that I’m glad to leave behind, but somewhere deep down, a fleeting thought reappears every now and then…what if things repeat…what if I find myself going through the same emotions again?
Letting go is a tough thing to do. Even when we’ve been learning to do so, in a multitude of ways before. Letting go is always a challenge. I learnt this once again, in a fresh new context—and finally, after a struggle that lasted nearly a week or so, I learnt to let go…of everything that was holding me back.
Some things push us to the brink all too easily, and it happens to the best of us and the strongest of us—no matter how resilient and confident we may have been. The struggles are all too real and one is left with the feeling of being drowned in a deluge of feelings and emotions, from where there is no escape!
This week, I faced one of my worst days in recent times that further led me down the rabbit hole of self-loathing and ignominy! It was impossible to push myself out of it, but what I realised whilst I was struggling was that occasionally, we must ask for help. I did. And it made a huge difference in helping me find my way back.
Back to myself after all the agony. Back to feeling whole again, after feeling like I was ripped apart into shreds.
There are dark times that we hate to imagine ourselves in. I was right there, in one of my worst nightmares, caught in the dark, unsure, blinded and lost. But, then, now, looking back, I can say it was because of the dark that I can now see the light.
Once again, I’ve been reminded to appreciate the impermanence of things—because, all said and done, nothing lasts—neither the good, not the bad!
Thank God for that!!
I’m grateful for every life lesson that has come my way this week. Just deeply and utterly grateful to the Universe for looking after me through it all. The learnings were many, but if I could just sum it up in a few words it would be something like this:
“Accept yourself, love yourself, and keep moving forward. If you want to fly, you have to give up what weighs you down.”
― Roy T. Bennett
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Written as part of our #SoulfulSunday free writing exercise, along with my friends Vinitha and Shilpa.
