The last strain of thought that I have before the gentle voice guides me to stillness, goes somewhat like this—
“Upheavals come and go. There are days when we get swayed from our path and days when we find it easy enough to stick to it. No two days are the same. Through the ups and downs, the highs and the lows, we rise and fall, countless times, learning, and unlearning things that we perhaps never really consciously think about as we go about our lives…“
Calming my soul and shutting the incessant chatter in my head, the voice leads me to an oasis of peace and quiet—something that I’ve not had since I woke up to the sounds of the morning.
Now, I’m watching myself sitting by the edge of the sea…it is that beautiful twilight hour when day meets night in transit…I am watching the slowly fading light on the horizon, with dark grey clouds coming in to fill the patch of blue sky before me.
Just as I feel a sense of apprehension rising slowly within me, I tell my heart—no matter what comes, I must hold myself in light and hope and continue to feel empowered and positive. Let those dark clouds not weigh me down or take away my peace or calm or sanity. Let me not give in to the fears…I find great comfort in the thought that I can be that lighthouse that shines by the shores, even on a windy stormy night, to guide ships tossed by approaching storms…come what may, I hope, I wish I can be the light that shines through the dark night. That’s all I need to be right now. I need to be that light who lights up from within, when things around are no longer bright or hopeful. I manage to quell my fears…Relieved, I continue to sit calmly looking at the turbulent waters.
I am still. I am calm. I am in peace. I am strong. I am hopeful. I am me—Broken. Chipped. Imperfect. And incomplete. And yet, despite being all of that, trying to be that lighthouse by the edge of the choppy sea.
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Written as part of our #SoulfulSunday freewriting exercise—a concept ideated by Vinitha, Shilpa and yours truly.
Yes, upheavals come and go. Yes, no two days are the same. Thanks for this dose of positivity which I needed today. Like a lighthouse, you guided me … thank you, Esha!
Beautiful writing.
Your post made me long to sit at a beach and just ‘be’. The lighthouse is such a powerful symbol of calm in the storm and of direction.
Just wow, Esha …I was hanging on to each word and the feelings were flowing from you to me.
Thank you so much, Ruchi. So good to see you stop by the blog. 🙂
What an imagery, Esha! Your writing is a class apart, my dear! It flows dreamily and effortlessly. I can forever read what you write. And yes, thank you for being my lighthouse and guiding me. I love this exercise forcing me to sit down and find some focus and direct my thoughts onto the screen before me. Thank you for suggesting this idea of writing together, Esha. <3
Thank you so much, Vinitha! You’re being too kind, dear! I feel honoured to hear such amazing words from you. Just felt inspired listening to the meditations and those thoughts are always hovering above my conscious mind. All I did was to just let them out of my head. 😀
I’m glad that we are doing this exercise together. It is funny how we all think we have a block but if we are forced to churn out words, we somehow realise that words begin to flow naturally…Amazing no?
And, yes, you are definitely the lighthouse that shines through it all, shows the way to all those who have lost their way, gives peace and hope to all those who need it. You are, indeed, special!
Love you! <3 <3 <3
Seriously, lady, you need to write more, write often, and believe me, you will definitely find your writings a home in every publication you submit.
These are just gorgeous words, Esha! As I have said a hundred times already, I am in love with your writing!
You are one of my inspirations, Shilpa and when you say so, I am so so honoured, dear! Thanks for dropping by today and for always being there, encouraging me to go on despite the odds!
<3 Always there for you!