“Life is a progress and not a station.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Six months into 2019 and I know you are wondering what I’m going to tell you about my life or the things that happened to me during the past six months. In fact, just like you, I lived my days in exactly the same pace, dealing with the usual stuff that we all deal with, the good, the bad, the nasty and the downright unspeakable! Much though I’d love to say things have been great, the year has thrown in quite a few challenges my way. Despite the constant curve balls that have come in, there’s been one simple thing that has helped me focus on the good and stay positive through it all—the realisation that positivity is something that I need to practice constantly! A bit like what they say about how we need to keep running even to stay in the same place. I’ve been pumping up positivity into my heart and soul like a regular exercise, through the worst of times. Even on days when it has felt like a futile exercise. It has worked like magic on some days and fallen flat on other days. Never quite the same!
I’m choosing to focus on my best experiences this year— especially the ones that made me smile and made my 2019 extra special in the many ways that I wouldn’t have imagined. Like the family wedding at Kolkata that we attended in late January, when had a wonderful time with my extended family over three exciting days of fun and merriment or the surprise trip that spouse had planned for us in April, which meant two-weeks of travel in five of the most beautiful cities in Japan, which was in every way, a mind-blowing experience for all of us. Every little mindful minute spent in the lap of Nature, in stillness, savouring the silence only brought me peace—just the kind that I have sought for a long time; or the weekends we spent as a family, nurturing our souls, delving in art, sharing our innermost thoughts, baring our souls and revealing our vulnerabilities like we’d never had done before—all of these and more, brought me joy, a calmness and a strange sense of contentment. I could never have enough of the moments spent enjoying a quiet hour listening to music, filling myself in with the views of my beautiful sunset skies, as I sat by the living room window, when the turbulence got too much to handle!
On the blogging front, even though I didn’t write or blog much, I was pleasantly surprised to find my blog had made it into the Top Blogs List of 2019, which was a very badly needed boost to my sagging morale.
I am grateful to the connections I made towards the end of last year, with a few close friends that helped me combat many a stressful situation on the home front. Despite the odds, I actually looked forward to our leisurely catch-up once a month and it was always the little notes of encouragement from the friends, the spouse and my mom that kept me going through the bad and difficult days. Here, I must mention about how I also put aside days when I let go of mundane chores to focus on writing, by getting away from home, scribbling on my notepad, tapping away on the keyboard in the quiet confines of a coffee shop, nurturing the dreams of being a published author someday! I must say this is one dream that has sustained me through the odds.
Another reason that makes my 2019 really special is how it made me realise that I need to STOP being different things to different people ALL THE TIME—because I also need to be ME! The fact is, at this point in time, it does feel like a bit of a challenge to do so, and yet, it has never been so important for my mind, body and soul!
And, then, the icing on the cake was when we finally moved into our new home. This, happened towards the end of May, after years of planning a dream home and then, after deferring the move itself, because I got into panic mode realising what a humungous thing it was going to turn into! I did lose my sunset sky view as we now have a couple of thunderous highrises blocking my western sky but, I’m not complaining as long as I get to catch the Sunrise. Life is not what I had anticipated but every day, I’m ready to find new ways of savouring life. I do this because that is the only way I can refuel my self, recharge my batteries and stay hopeful. Staying positive is something I’ve been practising every single day. The curve balls haven’t stopped coming. We now have new problems on the health front involving the two sets of parents. It has completely taken over our working weeks and our weekends. The spouse and I haven’t had enough sleep, rest or respite from the constant stressors as we both continue to juggle work, chores and the balance that we all need to sustain ourselves. The odds will be there, but, one thing is for sure. The spouse and I are both determined not to let negativity in. So, we will go down fighting, if that is what it takes.
A few life lessons that I’ve learned over the past six months:
- No matter how awful we feel about ourselves and our lives, we are better than this. Bad times will not last forever.
- Chase the things that make us alive. Give ourselves the space to be who we are.
- Today needs to be lived in the fullest of ways, and not relegated to a distant tomorrow. Live today.
- We can always find a space to do something kind to ease ourselves when we are in pain. We just have to do it ourselves. And not wait for things to happen to us.
- Solutions come from where we stand right here, right now. All we got to do is to look for it. Talk to someone and share our troubles.
In a nutshell, these have been the key highlights of life during the last six months of 2019. As I see it, challenges in life will come and go but I’m eager to see what the next six months have in store for me.
So, how has 2019 been for you thus far? I’d love to hear from you about the things that made you smile and perhaps even made it special. What about the things that never quite went as planned? Most importantly, I’d love to hear about the life lessons you’ve picked up along the way, that you’d like to share with the rest of us.
I received this tag from Sunita and I am passing it on to Shilpa. 24 bloggers have got together to celebrate six months of 2019 from June 17-19. Each, in their unique ways, will share what the last six months mean to them. The 24 blog posts participating in this blogathon will bring you snippets of joy, hope, humour and stories too. Do read them, and share the blog love. Hope you enjoy them as much as we do! 🙂