If you want something you never had, you need to do something you’ve never done.
Four years ago, this day, on a cold and bleak January morning, I published my very first post on my newly registered blog which I had named Soultalks because that was what it actually was—rambings of my inner soul. For years, before that momentous day, I remember being nagged and bullied by my conscience to pick up the pen and WRITE! But, my mind was caught in a deep freeze, and my only companions were constant self-doubts that were forever ready to thwart all my intentions of ever being a writer. Having mulled over it in a thousand versions of the same self-doubting ditty that I had been singing to myself for years, one morning I finally decided to break free.
Now, looking back, I am chuffed to recall that first post I wrote—a travel piece on Bylakuppe, a little known Tibetan settlement, located in lush green Coorg, on the outskirts of Mysore. It so happened that in December 2014, we had gone for a family trip to Mysore and Coorg. I had read about this Buddhist Monastery called Namdrolling and was particularly keen to visit the place, so coaxed the better half to fit it into our itinerary. When we visited Namdrolling, I was completely bowled over by the beauty of the monastery! Probably, my new-found inspiration and the sudden surge of enthusiasm resulting from that trip ultimately drove me towards my blogging journey.
While that first post took me forever to write, the thrill of completing it was unbelievable. Publishing it on the blog was an added bonus.
Over the next couple of weeks, I revelled in it with the feverish excitement of a teenager. Over the rest of the day, through the endless chores, I’d get down to tweaking what I had written. I’d be too tempted to edit my post every time I read it. In the coming weeks, I steadily got down to publishing a post or two every week. Of course, I was naive enough to believe that publishing a post was all there was to blogging. It would take me months to figure out just how complex the whole business of blogging would turn out to be. I decided to focus on writing solely for myself. I wrote as and when I felt like, and for myself. There were times when there was hardly any traffic. I continued nonetheless. Most of the contents on this blog started as personal outpourings. While many lurkers stopped by, there were only a few who actually connected. I made new friends and launched myself as a blogger.
Four years might seem really negligible to a veteran blogger, but I’ve had an incredible journey and some extremely valuable life lessons, thanks to the stumbling blocks that came my way, be it in the form of those intermittent breaks or the long torturous periods of being in the throes of a writer’s block, when the muse was gone for good. I still struggle as a blogger but now, I call myself a work in progress, because I’m learning to set smaller goals, and becoming more accepting of the fragility of life and the vulnerability of the human condition. Blogging is a part of this essential human condition where I am but a cog in the wheel, a minuscule element in the larger scheme of things. If there is one important lesson that I can take from this, it is this, that in blogging as much as in life itself, the journey to self-discovery will never be an easy one.
Today, this blog has become an inseparable part of my creative self, a doorway to my world of thoughts, dreams, memories and rants.
Writing on the blog has not just helped heal a hurt. It has also helped me survive hospital stays and bitter arguments and how to get over depressive thoughts. In fact, it has been nothing short of therapeutic to have poured oneself, (sometimes all of it!) into paper or the screen and let it bleed!
MySoultalks was once an impossible dream but now, I believe that the journey of a thousand miles did begin with that single step when I decided to write my very first blog post. And, together, just like that, the blog and I, have both come a long way, thanks to the constant love and support from YOU all—my readers, my fellow bloggers, and my writing group comrades—who continue to be the wind beneath my wings!
With heartfelt thanks and deep gratitude to each one of you who’ve been with me all along!
Today, on my fourth blogversary, I have just one small request for each one of you—What is that ONE advice/feedback that you’d like to leave me with, that can help me improve as a blogger and maybe, take this blog to the next level? Your feedback really matters a lot. Thank you very much for your time and patience. 🙂
Linking this with #MondayMusings by Corinne.